Lyrics

Dark clouds and full black smoke
Choke my throat grief racks my hope
Restless despair my heartbeat races

Gray hair haggard face long drawn face sunken eyes
Oh I'm scared

Darkness seems to come to life, darkness seems to eat the light
Taking steps feels strange
Where do I walk? How long will this be?

I don't know, but You know
I don't know, but You know

Night comes but respite doesn't follow
Night comes but respite doesn't follow
I lay here with a restless beating heart
How will I face the day? How will I face the day?
Children run away from me
My nervous system burns and overfires
Dark clouds, am I succumbing to despair?

I dig myself a deeper hole I dig my deeper self a hole
And I hope through the valley
How long will this go on? How long will this be?

I don't know, but You know
I don't know, but You know

Walking will not save me
Hoping will not save me
Praying will not save me
Breathing will not save me
Living will not save me
Dying will not save me

Hark silver bells hear them ring hear them ring

How long? How long? How long?
Is a doomed state of mine for the rest of my life?

I don't know, but You know
I don't know, but You know